As always, the end of the year comes around and I, along with everyone else on this planet start to feel all nostalgic. Looking back on the year just gone I never imagined I would be in the position I am today.
Nothing major-key-alert has happened in my career, my living circumstances or my finances. I’ve not had a baby or got engaged or bought a house. Instead I almost feel like I’ve just coasted. Coasted through this stressful but necessary year.
I started off the year knowing it would be an interesting one. My Chinese Zodiac is Year of the Pig, and this year was my year!
It’s well known that within your Chinese year, there tends to be a lot of turmoil and you are warned to be careful as all the energy is on you and a lot can go wrong! With this in mind, I knew I needed to make as little big decisions as possible this year. Make sure I am healthy, safe and happy to avoid the bad energies that could be lurking on every corner.
I began a stable job in a fabulous business, my boyfriend moved to London which made our long-distance-relationship no longer long-distance and it felt like all the foundations were there for a great year! I kept telling myself there is NO WAY this Year of the Pig can get me down, not unless I let it. So I continued to work hard at my job, my relationship, my finances and everything else that would set the scene of a great year.
That being said, I do know I spent a lot of this year in turmoil. Wondering what path I should take or what my next step should be. Most of my friends moved out of London too, which meant my support network had vanished. I found myself keeping constantly busy to avoid thinking for too long. Lots of things happened this year and I pushed most of them to side. But the problem with pushing them to the side means you can’t give anything else your full attention, because there’s a part of you that is elsewhere.
The thing is, is that no matter how hard you try and avoid something or brush past it or ignore it till it goes away, most of the time it won’t. It will just get worse, or out of control or make you so out of touch with yourself that you don’t know who is looking back at you in the mirror anymore.
Some things work out and some things don’t. But ultimately, whatever is meant to be yours, will be. And whatever is meant for you, will find you. Trust the journey and know that there is a new opportunity, a new start on every corner…big or small. It’s all there for you to find.
And as for the Year of the Pig, from my experience of the last year – the suspicions are true…It has been a hard year for this fellow Pig! But it is all changes that needed to happen to move forward, to start the next chapter in my life. So, yes this year has been hard. But I am grateful for the changes which I know future me will thank 2019 me for.
Happy New Year everyone!