2019 has been such a whirlwind of a year and the past 3 years since graduating university have flown by!
It feels like yesterday I was living my best life in a house with my best friends, studying a subject I loved and walking out of four amazing years with a degree. I remember people warning me that it’s normal to feel lost after uni. That most people move home, feel lonely all of a sudden and the shock of real life makes people feel low for a while. I didn’t really experience that – at least not straight away.
It wasn’t until the last year that I experienced something of the sort. I suddenly felt like my life was flying past me and I didn’t know which direction to take. Everyone else was so sure of their direction and where they were headed but I felt like I had no clue. When I opened up to my friends about this, it was so refreshing to hear they all felt the same. And even though they all look like they know what they’re doing, they actually have no idea.
It’s so easy to get lost in what everyone else seems to be doing and what you should be doing, that you lose sight of what’s important to you and what makes you happy. I’ve finished the year staying more true to myself than I ever have before. It’s been a journey and not the smoothest one at that, but I am so excited to see what 2020 holds for me and everyone around me!
Forget the pressure and just go with your gut. That is one thing I have had to learn to grasp this year. I always nodded and smiled when people told me to listen to my gut without actually knowing what it meant or even felt like. I’ve realised I was looking out for the wrong thing. I was expecting to hear a voice in my head or a tap on the shoulder telling me not to do something or which direction to take. But that’s not how it works, not for me anyway. I’ve learnt that listening to my gut is learning the difference between natural anxiety and that niggly feeling telling you it’s wrong. I often confused the two to the point where every thought I had turned into a big ball of ‘I don’t know, I’m anxious’.
Over thinking makes it hard to listen to your gut. When your brain is spinning so fast with thoughts flying in and out, it makes it almost impossible to think rationally. Letting go and learning to let things be is the most effective and simple way to allow your gut to speak to you. Once you stop allowing your brain to overload and worry about everything, you’ll know when things feel natural and when they don’t. Don’t get me wrong, it is easier said than done, and I am still learning to do it myself…but so far, so good!
Whatever life throws at you this year, know that you got through 2019 and the many years before that, and each year you are getting stronger and closer to where you are supposed to be.
2020 just sounds right doesn’t it? It’s all even and perfectly symmetrical…the year of balance, foundation building and stability.
Happy New Year everyone, may this new year bring many new wonderful memories and little stories!